you can have what you are willing to be.

by Mindy @ Just A One Girl Revolution on July 3, 2011

in Uncategorized

As a kid, I used to read in the car all the time.  Nothing made me carsick, nothing fazed me.

Those days are long gone.  I was in the back row of Nicki’s mini-van yesterday for all of five minutes and started to feel carsick.  She pulled over and we quickly rearranged one of the car seats so I could move up a bit, but the feeling never quite went away the rest of the day and I just felt kind of funky.

I snacked on some peanuts mid-afternoon, before a dinner of guacamole, pineapple salsa, and tortilla chips.  It’s a good thing guac is vegan.  I’d be in serious trouble otherwise.

With that, I successfully made it through my second day of the Vegan Month Challenge!  Whew!  These couple days of being in someone else’s home will make it harder, I think, but at the same time, I know if I can get through that then I really have no reason not to be successful the rest of the month.

Since I wasn’t feeling all that great most of yesterday, I spent a good chunk of time watching Make It or Break It.  I know it’s just a TV show and these girls aren’t real, but watching them work for their dreams of Olympic gold is so inspiring!  As I was trying to fall asleep last night, I had this moment of revelation – nobody is keeping me from my goals except myself.

I want to run a marathon.  Sure, I’ve been having problems with my knee.  But, how much of what is stopping me from achieving that goal is truly from my knee and how much of it is simply out of fear?  I haven’t done anything for the last two weeks.  Yet, I think I’m using my knee problems as an excuse rather than a legitimate reason to stop.  When the doctor ordered an MRI (which came back showing absolutely nothing), it freaked me out.  My knee has been an issue since I hyperextended it when I was twelve, yet I’ve always pushed through.  I was scared of what it might show, of what might happen.

I have to get past my fears, this wall that is keeping me from my goals.  Marathon training is hard work!  It’s hard, it hurts, it’s exhausting and draining on so many levels.  But, I want this so badly.  I want to cross that finish line.  I want to call myself a marathoner.

And, I fully believe that come October, I will do just that.  It’s going to be hard, but I’m ready to work for it.  My yoga studio put one of those “just what I needed to hear in this moment” kind of messages on Twitter and Facebook this morning.

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Love.  It applies to so much of what I’m working towards in my life right now:  the marathon, the weight loss, even this vegan month.  I need to stop getting in my own way and believe that I can do it!

Breakfast was a couple foods that, in all honesty, I’m not all that fond of but sounded good this morning.  Cooked oats with a banana.  I like raw oats, I like bananas mushed up/blended into things (breads, smoothies, etc).  Cooked oats?  Sliced banana?  Neither are high on my list.

Yet, it worked for me this morning.  I added in a spoonful of peanut butter, along with a little brown sugar, cinnamon, and vanilla.  Eh, I’m not going to eat it every morning, but on rare occasions, it hits the spot.

Off to a (day early) 4th of July party in a bit!

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Briana July 3, 2011 at 6:46 pm

Don’t let a little fear get in the way of achieving your goals! Let’s both call ourselves marathoners this fall! 🙂

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