run with perseverance.

by Mindy @ Just A One Girl Revolution on September 16, 2011

in Uncategorized

At Anthem on Wednesday night, our pastor talked about a topic near and dear to my heart:  running.  He shared verses out of the book of Hebrews.

1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Hebrews 12v1-2

So, running yes, but not so much the lace up your shoes and hit the pavement kind of running. Persevering, don’t give up, keep trying.  That kind of running.  Run the proverbial race.  Live your life.

At the end of his talk, Matt asked everyone to grab the index card and pencil under our chairs and answer the question “what has caused me to quit?”; the caveat being that we had to draw our answer, not write it out.

Initially, I knew the words I wanted to say, but couldn’t figure out how to draw it.  I started writing to get the creative juices flowing.

Fear.
Laziness.
Not believing in myself.

After dwelling on that for a moment, I realized the appropriate picture and did my best to draw it in spite of my huge lack of artistic skills.

I know, I know…the next VanGogh right here.  Take a moment to be amazed, it’s okay.  😉

Even though I’ve come so far in my life, my weight loss journey, and my self-confidence, I think sometimes I still live like the overweight girl I used to be.

The girl that was too scared to try.
The girl that was so uncomfortable with her appearance she could be painfully shy.
The girl that was miserable because she had gotten so overweight.
The girl that just wasn’t happy.

Even though it’s been a few years since I lost the majority of my weight and despite the fact that I’m still not quite where I’d love to be, I often forget how far I’ve come.  I sometimes operate in the shell of the person I was, not the person I am.

I am not that girl anymore and I need to stop living like I am.

I’m strong.
I’m smart.
I’m funny (at least I think I can be sometimes!).
I’m blessed with a lot of people that love me just for who I am.
I’m a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a cousin, a niece, a friend.
I’m a half marathoner and two time 25k-er.
I’m caring and compassionate.
I’m beautiful.

There’s a lot of really great things about myself that I can easily pretend aren’t the truth. No, I’m not perfect and that’s okay.  I never will be.

But for me to ignore the positive things about the person I’ve become and let that cause me to quit, that is doing nothing good in my life.  That is keeping me as the person I was then, not the person I am now, and certainly not the person I am trying to become.

Who I was shaped who I am today, but at the end of the day, I am so much more than that person and I need to stop living in her shadow.

Today, I’m standing up and running the race.

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Kristie September 16, 2011 at 1:21 pm

Love this Mindy. And just remember we’re all cheering for you too, all through life :).

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mindy @ just a one girl revolution. September 16, 2011 at 3:14 pm

Aww, thanks hun! 🙂

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Kayla September 16, 2011 at 3:17 pm

I love this, and I love you. *huggles*
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Calvin September 16, 2011 at 10:47 pm

I want you to know this is the single best blog post I’ve ever read in the genre of fitblogging. So honest, open and reflective. What a great post. Count me as a new subscriber. This is absolutely perfect. I don’t know you IRL but after this, I definitely believe in you.
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mindy @ just a one girl revolution. September 17, 2011 at 4:46 pm

Thank you so, so much for your kind words – you just made my day.

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