missing in action.

by Mindy @ Just A One Girl Revolution on June 27, 2011

in Uncategorized

So, I’ve been slightly MIA as of late.  I feel like I need to explain myself.  I know I don’t need to, but I suppose it’s more of a sort out my own brain, get the junk out of my soul, air it all out, and move on kind of need.

Life has felt slightly overwhelming and it’s been draining.  Not any of those major kind of things that are life changing, but just enough of those little momens that it has slowly kicked me in the butt and knocked me down.

Don’t get me wrong, there have been bright spots, those moments that bring me such a sense of deep joy and contentment.  Friday night, I had dinner with Andi, Kayla, and Christopher at one of my favorite restaurants in the city.  Sunday, I went to church for the first time in weeks and heard a teaching that I so desperately needed to be reminded of.  Oh, and saw U2 in concert.  No big deal.  (VERY big deal!)  Tonight, I laughed so hard I cried.  In the midst of the life gets the best of me moments, it’s those bright spots that remind me it gets better.

I haven’t worked out since last Sunday night.  Not a bit.  I feel like I should feel guilty or bad about it.  I’m less than a month into training for a freaking marathon and I have already lost my drive and motivation.

If I’m being honest, everything with my knee has gotten to me more than I thought it would.  I’m not sure if it’s truly hurting more than normal or if I’m just finally acknowledging the pain that’s normally there or if I’m just a hypochondriac, but it’s been just this dull ache that won’t go away.  I had my MRI on Saturday morning, so I should hear back from the doctor with those results in the next couple days.  Now, it’s just a waiting game.

After the MRI, I had a totally chill day around the house of catching up on TV, watching a movie, taking a nap.  The kind of day everyone needs every so often.

Watching Forks Over Knives kind of messed with me.  In a good way, I think.  Sara and I are going to try a one month vegan experiment starting July 1.  Walking out of the theater, it evolved into one of those “I’ll do it if you will” kind of things.  I struggled to do one week as a vegan earlier this year.  I don’t know how a month will go!  But, you never know if you never try.  In the meantime, I’m eating up what I can in my fridge because I hate to see food go to waste.  Oh, and using up a Coldstone Groupon that’s going to expire in the middle of July.  Again, you hate to see it go to waste!  😉

Today kicked off what is, hands down, the busiest week in my office of the entire year.  Today was the worst day of the week and I feel as though I didn’t handle it well.  At all.  I tried, but I felt like I fell flat on my face more often than I’d like.  I’m pretty sure I felt like things were worse than they actually were, but I’m my own worst critic.

Anyways, all this to say that I’m still alive, I’m still here.  I just needed a few days to be okay with not blogging, not taking pictures of everything I eat, not going for a run or strength training.  I needed a few days to breathe deep, to disconnect, to relax.  I needed to remind myself that life gets tough and a bit draining, but I’m not Supergirl and it’s okay to let that weigh me down a bit.  Because, it might wear me down for awhile, but it always, always, always gets better.

If you’re still reading at this point, thanks for letting me ramble and vent and decompress.

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heather June 27, 2011 at 11:52 pm

xoxox

We’ve all, each of us, have been there.
In blogging, in working out, in day to day life.
We’ve been there.

These seasons are an essential part of our humanity. Especially when we allow ourselves to a) experience them unapologetically and b) find great revelation through them. I have no doubt that you will do both. These seasons of less-than-blissful are SO IMPORTANT. For one, they help us to be uber-grateful for the most blissfilled seasons. Also, they remind us that the little things (and the big things) that do bring us joy, no matter on a good day or a bad, are oh so precious. The great company, great food, great service and message- the U2 concert (EPIC!!!), the laughter – it’s all playing a role in your here and now. Hold on to it. Revel in it. Dance through it.

Xoxoxo

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Kaitlin June 27, 2011 at 11:53 pm

Mindy, it’s so amazing to hear you share your thoughts and be honest and open with how you’re feeling. I really admire your level-headedness and perspective and understanding the difficulties you’re facing but not blowing any of these events out of proportion. You’re doing a wonderful job focusing on what’s important in the moment– your job and your friends (for relaxation).

But there still are things that will shake you up a bit. Injuries, especially, have a way of really bringing a person down and messing with your mood, which slowly seeps into other aspects of your life. It’s great that you are able to get an MRI and hopefully have a plan soon to combat the injury symptoms you’re feeling. In the meantime, remember to enjoy any exercise you can get– it’s an amazing mood booster and will help clear your head in the stress of the work week.

You don’t need any reminders to appreciate the good– you clearly are tapped into what’s good right now and I’m in awe of your maturity and perspective with all of the stuff around you. But don’t forget that you’re fantastic, mistakes will work themselves out, and to appreciate the Coldstone and dinners with friends 🙂

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Heather June 28, 2011 at 8:21 am

p.s. LOVEWINS.
just a reminder.

i know you probably hear this and no doubt SEE THIS more often than any of my blends, but I just want to remind you to get to the CORE of it and reflect on what it means, and what it meant to you the first time you heard it. And not just in terms of the love you give others, but the love you give yourself, too.

xo

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Kayla June 28, 2011 at 10:15 am

Love you, chica. 🙂 Take it easy. See you Thursday. I’ll have a big hug waiting.

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Liz June 28, 2011 at 1:45 pm

I hope you feel better soon. Everyone has weeks like this, and you shouldn’t feel guilty if you need time to relax to get through it.

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Kristie June 28, 2011 at 2:15 pm

Glad you took some time off – even a superchic[k] needs to every once in a while! 🙂 Happy you are able to see those little things that are awesome too. Taking it one day at a time over here – it’s helping me deal a little better with work & life stressers.

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