A New Plan for My Spring Races

by Mindy @ Just A One Girl Revolution on April 21, 2017

in Fitness

I need a new plan for my spring races. Almost a year ago, I registered for the Nashville Rock ‘n’ Roll Half Marathon. I wasn’t running a ton at the time, but had no doubt in my mind that I would be ready for 13.1 by the time the race rolled around. A friend is running it with me, so we’re making it a girls weekend road trip. When I registered, I was feeling confident, apparently, because I put an anticipated finish time of 2:15. Yes, I was going big with a PR. Why not come back strong?

Earlier this year, I also registered for the River Bank Run 25k, a race I’ve done several times. Last year, I dropped down to the 5k, but this year, it was back to the big game. Two weeks after the half marathon, it was a perfect build up. I started the year feeling so confident about how things would progress.

But, after a year of minimal running and feeling slow, getting back into the groove has been harder than I anticipated. I thought that once I got into a regular routine, things would start to fall into place. Which they may have, had I ever gotten into a regular routine. But, I’ve struggled so much. I feel discouraged when I think about where I was two years ago compared to where I am now. Two years ago Mindy weighed less and ran faster. A 5k was a warmup distance and now it’s a struggle. I had more muscle and flexibility. Everything about my fitness just felt better then.

Not falling into that comparison trap is incredibly hard. But, it keeps happening. And that discouragement about where I am now often leads to less motivation. I wish it were the opposite. I want to get back there, so it should push me to work harder. But, it doesn’t.

So, when I finish a run averaging more than a minute per mile slower than I was two years ago, I beat myself up. I know I shouldn’t. But, it happens. Then, I just don’t want to run. I feel like I’ll be in this current state forever. That where I was two years ago is this impossible goal. That was where my head was for these first few months of 2017. Thankfully, I’m starting to shake out of that and feel like I’m really making progress.

Between all of that, a week of being miserably sick, and everything with my grandma, I never quite fell in line with my training plan. I think I had one week, maybe two, where I got in all of my workouts as planned. The rest of the time, not so much.

Suddenly, that puts me at a week out from Nashville. Last weekend, I ran 6.2 miles of a planned 7 or 8. Well, ran a little and walked a lot, to be honest. Although 5 miles the week before felt great, this was a different story. I ended feeling like crossing the finish line in Nashville was nothing but a pipe dream. I still feel that way, at least a little.

A year ago, my goal for this race was a killer PR. Today, it’s simply to cross that finish line and hopefully have some fun along the course. I’m going to run as much as I can, but be okay walking a lot of the course, too. More importantly, if I can finish with a smile on my face and a healthy body, all the better. It’s still an admirable goal. Running a half marathon or a 25k is something most people will never do. I’ve done it before and I know I can do it again, for better or worse. Once the 25k is under my belt, I can start really thinking about the Chicago Marathon.

But, one step at a time. Literally and figuratively, of course. I need one more long run under my belt tomorrow. I’m hoping for 8 or 9 miles. Reaching 10 would be a dream, but I’m also going to be very careful to not wreck my body a week before the race. On race day, I hope that muscle memory kicks in and that, along with adrenaline, will carry me through the miles.

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Getting Life Back to Normal

by Mindy @ Just A One Girl Revolution on April 20, 2017

in Fun and Random Posts

The last month of life was anything but normal as I spent as much time as I could with my grandma in her last days. Losing her wrecked me in a way I never imagined possible. But, I know that she wouldn’t want me to be sad. I know that she wouldn’t want me to mourn indefinitely. The best thing I can do to honor my grandma is to get back to living my life.

So, that’s what I’m trying to do. Some days are easier than others, but with each passing day, I feel a little more me again. Life became a blur of work, Hospice, and time in the car. I’d be home just long enough to sleep and do it all again. In the days after she passed away, I was in a heartbroken daze and everything was out of sorts.

But, I’m diving back into life. I’m lacing up my running shoes and unrolling my yoga mat. I didn’t have the energy or desire to read during the last few weeks, but I’m getting my nose back into books and wandering the stacks at the library. For a stretch, my diet consisted of restaurants and foods that took little to no effort to prepare. I think I ate my weight in baby carrots, crackers, and hummus while we were at Hospice. But, I bought real food at the grocery store and even cooked a real meal this week. After missing work the first week she was in Hospice, I’m finally feeling caught up. Missing that those days from the office was worth all the stress of feeling so far behind, though. I am forever grateful for those last moments to spend with her, particularly the days she was still lucid.

In the broader sense, I think this whole experience has made me even more prone to find small moments of gratitude. I’m generally an optimistic, glass half full personality, but I’m leaning into that even more these days. It feels healing to find beauty and goodness wherever I can, especially on the days where my heart is absolutely breaking.It’s the moments when my cat curls up next to me that bring me peace. It’s the blossoming magnolia trees and the stunning springtime sunsets that bring me a sense of joy.

Those are the things I’m clinging to in these days. The things that make me feel whole and the little moments that fill my heart are all making me come alive again. And, it’s a powerful place to live from.

More than ever, this whole experience taught me the importance of making the most of each day I’m given. My grandma had a full, rich life full of time with family and friends, travel and adventure, and spending her free time doing things she loved. I want the same thing for myself. I think I’m off to a good start in this life so far, but I want it even more. The thing is, I don’t want to sit around and waste my days, but to fill them up with as much living as I can. Perhaps I want that a bit selfishly, and I don’t think that’s a bad thing. Right now, more than anything, I want that because I know that would bring her so much joy.

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